Heart and Mind

🧠: Stop, I’m begging you please stop
❤️: I can’t, I don’t know how to change,
🧠: You need to please, we can’t handle this pain,
Why does the heart never want to listen to the brain?

❤️: And why does the brain belittle the heart,
Why does it act as if I am insane?
Thoughts of love? aren’t thoughts your department?
Then why is it only me who’s to blame?

🧠: For you think thoughts devoid of logic,
It’s ok to dream as long as you accept reality,
That’s why they call it “losing your mind”
For without me you are but lost in insanity

❤️: The societal logic that you speak about,
“Insanity” is just not conforming to society’s norm,
Real insanity is still insanity even if a majority
Of people follow it, more than the drops of rain in a storm

What is insanity really, its to go against ones nature
As to love uncontrollably, nothing is more natural
And it’s natural to rise and fall, love and be hurt
Rather than be devoid of emotions because you think tactical

🧠: You’re nothing but a dreamer more dangerous
Than an army of demons dreaming impossibilities
❤️: What use is a mind if you can’t use it to dream,
What the hell is the point in your abilities?

What is the point in intelligence if you can’t use it
To achieve such dreams of delightful glee?
If ignorance is bliss then I’d rather be stupid,
I’d rather be blind if failure is all I could see.

🧠: Denial is not true happiness you must learn
Contentment comes only from accepting what’s true
It’s not real happiness it’s but a facade
And you know that deep down in your…..well you

❤️: And what if there is no middle ground between us
And between both of our extremist views
Do I stay without any feelings and not take the risk
Of failing in my purpose and being left bruised

🧠: Perhaps you just weren’t meant to have such love
Afterall if everyone felt such love it would no longer be unique
❤️: Then I will forever chase a dream of love
Even if I know deep down my destiny is defeat

Nothing else can compete with loves beauty
And nothing ever will, I’d rather blindly dream
Then feel nothing at all like an empty shell
It’s worth the pain however mad such an idea may seem

🧠: Why not be sensible my sweet heart?
Why not listen when everyone advises you to quit?
♥️: Why in everything else do people say follow your heart
No matter how hard your dream seems believe in it?

But when it comes to love I must accept the truth,
When it’s more important than any other dream we’ve had
You know you can’t get her off of you
And in your subconscious you want to fight just as bad

If she’s not right for us why does she enter your thoughts?
🍆: Because she’s hot, just look at her body
🧠: Stay out of this, you’re even more trouble
♥️: Don’t get involved, both of us are keeping it Godly

🧠: But seriously though I’ll tell you what you already know
Whilst you’ll completely ignore me like you always do
And I’ll watch you without being able to stop you
And once again see everything I predicted come true

Then you’ll look to me to find a solution,
For the fact that you’ve broken yourself in two
You’ll ask me to find a way to stop all our hurting
But we’ll have noone else to blame but you

♥️: And still I’d do it a thousand times again
I don’t regret chasing happiness nor will I ever
🧠: I guess to not do, I would always regret not trying
♥️: Then perhaps in this it is the heart not the brain that is clever.

LOVE

A universe is such a large thing, an almost endless expanse
All manner of wonders and miracles are brought to being
Stars that shoot across the sky, colourful milky ways
Wonders that cause laughter, smiles and a thousand feelings
Who could think that within all this beautiful chaos
There could be an era when her light would shine
A century of the existence where nothing else can compare
That like tonights sunset will eventually be lost in time
Allahs most wondrous and most beautiful sculpture
For like a bolt of lightning with a thousand volts she struck me
Paralysed by her eyes and I’m frozen like ice
For could there ever be anything in all creation as lovely
And she sits with her legs crossed on the chair
She laughs and her eyes light up like a chandelier
She leaves and I’m alone she’s no longer near me
But the thoughts of her however, will not disappear
And the cherry blossom blooms when she stands beside it
Its beauty withers when she leaves and cannot stand alone
Her lips call out silently to my heart without words
The feelings incomparable to anything that I have ever known
And I’m willing to protect and serve her like a knight
She is a queen of queens, a queen without a crown
She’s a peacock amongst Trafalgar squares pigeons
A Picasso amongst the grey buildings of London town
She is madness itself for such an illusion cannot be real

She is all of my being, she is all of my existence

She may be so far now in a desert spring but I can’t forget her

Every atom of existence cries for her no matter the distance
The universe centres around her smile
As do the tremors that shake me to my very core
So what else is there to do but to dream til my end
And become but dust happily upon her floor
The pain is ecstatic and the joy a burning
Like the sun and the moon became my all
Every thought is entwined with thoughts of her
And how her hair is like a jet black waterfall
When I dream of her it feels so real
And when I’m with her for real it feels like a dream
I tell myself I’m done promise myself to forget
But all attempts evaporate from me like rising steam
Like the big bang she smiled and a whole existence
Was brought to life like when a seed has split
And my heart is scattered all across her universe
She can keep every piece, every single little bit
As she walks towards me her huge smile smiling
The sun is like a spotlight shining down on her from above
The stars align a catwalk, the planets orbit her continuously
What is this duniya without such a love

Its Hard

It’s so hard to stay patient in love
When jealous paranoia engulfs your thoughts
And to then pretend to be carefree
To hide my insecurities and not be caught

Am I?

Am I such a fool,
Who only sees what he wants to see?
Who dreams impossible dreams,
But makes them seem a possibility?
Am I just a hopeless romantic?
Who is hopeless in my love for you?
And if you are nothing but a dream
I don’t want to wake and break my heart in two.

But I must force myself to do so,
Like an alarm in the morning forces me awake,
I can’t afford to oversleep for life must go on
And if that is a life without you then that’s my fate
And you gave me every sign that I stand no chance
But I can’t see for love is blind, so very blind,
Even if I quit this endless and hopeless road,
My heart will still fool itself into believing you’ll be mine.

And so I’m trapped in this endless cycle,
Bouncing from ecstatic hope to tormented sadness
I wish I could tell what you are thinking
I think about it so much it drives me to madness
I hate that when I look in your eyes I can’t read them
I love that when I look in your eyes I can’t read them
My mysterious dream that is so far out of reach
But I choose denial over logic and I keep on believing

You Are My Madness!

You are my madness!

With you all logic escapes me
And it takes me and breaks me
Into a thousand pieces
Like dropping a glass chandelier
And my tears are uncontrollable
My fear inconsolable
All I can think of is holding you
But you are not here
You are not here

You are my madness!

All else makes sense but you are senseless
How you broke down my defenses
And got me jumping 1000 fences
To tell you I love you like I’ve never meant it before
And my heart is in the trenches at war
Without any concept of your flaws
But I still love you more and more than I could ever believe
I deceive myself that I may receive
Your love for which I grieve
And I must retrieve my lost sanity
But that I can never achieve

You are my madness!

Not a second goes by
Where I don’t try to deny that I
Love you insanely and by all I hold dear
I’d try anything with blood sweat and tears
If it would get you here beside me but I fear
That my little deer will disappear
But whether near or far we are never apart
You are here in my soul and in my heart
Til the days end from when it did start.
And I’m studying the charts of our journey
Maybe I’m not mad I’m just not that smart

You are my madness!

A thousand thoughts like Menelaus
A thousand ships launch from a thousand ports
Caught in your trap trying to win over your court
I’m fighting for your love and I can’t abort
I’ll climb over the walls of your fort like a knight
Who will fight to rescue his queen, but it seems
It’s the queen of my dreams who will rescue my heart
I’ve never seen anyone like you in all my existence
And resistance to my heart fails in every instance
My instincts tell me that you are the one
They tell me that you are the one

You are my madness!

My complete insanity crazed so tragically
My mind has collapsed into complete anarchy
In my vanity I believe that I can win your hand
Here I stand ready to travel across foreign lands
And you repremand me as hope slips away like sand
Between my fingers, but your ghost still lingers
Everywhere I look, even if I look in my heart you’re in there
So it remains bleeding and injured in despair
But I don’t care for anything else, I’m prepared
To fight every army to climb every mountain
You’re a fountain in the desert and the stars I can count them
From your eyes till you think of me and your destiny
And say to yourself that you have found him
But for me to dream such a dream is crazy
Maybe my brain did betray me and take me
Beyond all logic and reason and maybe you’ll break me
And destroy me but please stay in my life and don’t forsake me
I can’t live without you you’re like water for a fish.
You are my life, my heart, my dream, my only wish.
You are my my ecstatic happiness my inconsolable sadness
And I can’t say why therefore you are my madness.

You are my madness!

Peach

You may love peaches, but a peach
First grows into a plant from a seed,
But one cannot eat branches, roots or leaves,
Before it bears fruit it’s no better than a weed.

I’m Falling

I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling
Head spinning in the whirlpool of your eyes
All logic has been replaced with insanity
And I scream your name with silent cries
Where was I going in life I don’t remember
Everything I was I’ve replaced with my love for you
I’m falling unable to stop nor even care
For the hurricane of this storm I’m passing through

I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling
Down a bottomless well and i don’t even care
What was the surface other than a bland normality
What is the point of it all if you aren’t there
Collapsing like towerblocks being demolished
Into rubble as is my sanity and state of mind
I used to see my future so clearly
Now I don’t want to open my eyes my love is so blind

I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling
And no matter what I do I keep on falling
I look at the stars at night as if you are there
And towards the love of my life my heart is calling
Slipping like the sloped wet slate of a roof in rain
I can’t rise like the sun far away in the East every day
I have fallen so so deep in love with you I can’t think
I will continue to love you no matter what, come what may

I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling
Like a shooting star falling through the sky
Burning and aching nonestop is my heart for you
With no understanding or care of any reason why
With the force of a meteorite is how I fell for you
Overcome with loves dizziness destroying all thought
My heart is yours to do with however you please
I’m trapped unable to escape the net of which I’m caught

I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling I’m falling
So deep is this hole that I’ve lost allhope of escape
I just dream of a thousand happy dreams
And a thousand times I feel my heart break
I’m swept up in a tornado of despair and ecstasy
Swirling with hope, guilt, shame, but love most of all
No matter how desperately I grasp at anything to hold
Nothing on this earth can break my fall

Your Name

You know you’re crazy about someone
When seeing them makes your heart shake with such a jolt,
But just merely seeing your name written
It feels like my heart’s been hit with a thunderbolt!

When I see it pop up upon my phone screen
That thunderbolt turns into a lightning storm,
Whatever I’m going through my heart starts pounding
And whatever my mood it rises like the sun at dawn.

Just seeing the places were we’ve hung out,
I picture you there still like you’re a ghost,
Like a refugee picturing his home across the vast ocean
Whilst sitting dreamily upon the coast.

Oh my gazelle the mere sound of your name
Believe me it distracts me completely from all else,
I so want to scream it out loud like a madman,
Only my pride manages to allow me to control myself.

A simple text message out of the blue
Makes me want to jump with such a joy I am feeling,
I read it critically like it’s a literary epic
And try to decifer its hidden meanings.

Just seeing your picture makes my day
And I smile by myself like a complete nutter.
You phone and I have so much I want to tell you
Then I hear your perfect voice and……I just stutter.

It’s You

Its you!
You are that feeling of infinite ecstasy,
Where joyful fanaticism has engulfed all logic,
And all else looses relevance with one text to me.

It’s you!
You are the worlds greatest distraction,
How does my mind always wander to your smile,
Your eyes or voice whenever I’m relaxing?

It’s you!
You are the very definition of loveliness,
Not a day goes by without my love sickness,
Completely encapsulating the very heart in my chest.

It’s you!
You are the very vision of beauty,
A portrait of perfection one look at your beautiful face
And I’m more bedazzled than by any sapphires or rubies.

It’s you!
You are the most beautiful and happy dream
A reality that may be impossibly out of reach
But I want to sleep for eternity when it’s you I’m seeing.

It’s you!
You are the most powerful force I’ve ever known,
How you can hypnotise me whenever you speak,
I am completely under your spell anytime you phone.

It’s you!
You are my hopeless sanity seeing defeat,
And your sparkling laughter destroyed all resistance,
I am completely at your will whenever we meet.

It’s you!
You are more than anything in my life that one
That makes my life be a constant festival of emotion
Oh how life is black and white when you’ve gone.

It’s you!
You are the most amazing woman I’ve ever met,
My love you will always be the love of my life,
A blessing that as the years go by I will never forget.

Still I

I can still dream, even without hope,
I am still holding on, even without a rope,
I am still fighting, climbing an endless slope,
Not knowing how to stop, but also how to cope.

I can still wish, even though the stars say otherwise,
I am still here, even if you put me down to size,
I am still in love, even if my heart dies,
I can’t help it, I’m gone with one look into your eyes.

I can still scheme, even if I overthink every variable,
I can still fight, even if the pain is unbearable,
I can still try, even if I must prepare to do
Every little thing that I can to let you know I’ll be there for you.