A universe is such a large thing, an almost endless expanse
All manner of wonders and miracles are brought to being
Stars that shoot across the sky, colourful milky ways
Wonders that cause laughter, smiles and a thousand feelings
Who could think that within all this beautiful chaos
There could be an era when her light would shine
A century of the existence where nothing else can compare
That like tonights sunset will eventually be lost in time
Allahs most wondrous and most beautiful sculpture
For like a bolt of lightning with a thousand volts she struck me
Paralysed by her eyes and I’m frozen like ice
For could there ever be anything in all creation as lovely
And she sits with her legs crossed on the chair
She laughs and her eyes light up like a chandelier
She leaves and I’m alone she’s no longer near me
But the thoughts of her however, will not disappear
And the cherry blossom blooms when she stands beside it
Its beauty withers when she leaves and cannot stand alone
Her lips call out silently to my heart without words
The feelings incomparable to anything that I have ever known
And I’m willing to protect and serve her like a knight
She is a queen of queens, a queen without a crown
She’s a peacock amongst Trafalgar squares pigeons
A Picasso amongst the grey buildings of London town
She is madness itself for such an illusion cannot be real
She is all of my being, she is all of my existence
She may be so far now in a desert spring but I can’t forget her
Every atom of existence cries for her no matter the distance
The universe centres around her smile
As do the tremors that shake me to my very core
So what else is there to do but to dream til my end
And become but dust happily upon her floor
The pain is ecstatic and the joy a burning
Like the sun and the moon became my all
Every thought is entwined with thoughts of her
And how her hair is like a jet black waterfall
When I dream of her it feels so real
And when I’m with her for real it feels like a dream
I tell myself I’m done promise myself to forget
But all attempts evaporate from me like rising steam
Like the big bang she smiled and a whole existence
Was brought to life like when a seed has split
And my heart is scattered all across her universe
She can keep every piece, every single little bit
As she walks towards me her huge smile smiling
The sun is like a spotlight shining down on her from above
The stars align a catwalk, the planets orbit her continuously
What is this duniya without such a love
It’s so hard to stay patient in love
When jealous paranoia engulfs your thoughts
And to then pretend to be carefree
To hide my insecurities and not be caught
Continue reading Its Hard
Am I such a fool,
Who only sees what he wants to see?
Who dreams impossible dreams,
But makes them seem a possibility?
Am I just a hopeless romantic?
Who is hopeless in my love for you?
And if you are nothing but a dream
I don’t want to wake and break my heart in two.
But I must force myself to do so,
Like an alarm in the morning forces me awake,
I can’t afford to oversleep for life must go on
And if that is a life without you then that’s my fate
And you gave me every sign that I stand no chance
But I can’t see for love is blind, so very blind,
Even if I quit this endless and hopeless road,
My heart will still fool itself into believing you’ll be mine.
And so I’m trapped in this endless cycle,
Bouncing from ecstatic hope to tormented sadness
I wish I could tell what you are thinking
I think about it so much it drives me to madness
I hate that when I look in your eyes I can’t read them
I love that when I look in your eyes I can’t read them
My mysterious dream that is so far out of reach
But I choose denial over logic and I keep on believing
You know you’re crazy about someone
When seeing them makes your heart shake with such a jolt,
But just merely seeing your name written
It feels like my heart’s been hit with a thunderbolt!
When I see it pop up upon my phone screen
That thunderbolt turns into a lightning storm,
Whatever I’m going through my heart starts pounding
And whatever my mood it rises like the sun at dawn.
Just seeing the places were we’ve hung out,
I picture you there still like you’re a ghost,
Like a refugee picturing his home across the vast ocean
Whilst sitting dreamily upon the coast.
Oh my gazelle the mere sound of your name
Believe me it distracts me completely from all else,
I so want to scream it out loud like a madman,
Only my pride manages to allow me to control myself.
A simple text message out of the blue
Makes me want to jump with such a joy I am feeling,
I read it critically like it’s a literary epic
And try to decifer its hidden meanings.
Just seeing your picture makes my day
And I smile by myself like a complete nutter.
You phone and I have so much I want to tell you
Then I hear your perfect voice and……I just stutter.
You are that feeling of infinite ecstasy,
Where joyful fanaticism has engulfed all logic,
And all else looses relevance with one text to me.
You are the worlds greatest distraction,
How does my mind always wander to your smile,
Your eyes or voice whenever I’m relaxing?
You are the very definition of loveliness,
Not a day goes by without my love sickness,
Completely encapsulating the very heart in my chest.
You are the very vision of beauty,
A portrait of perfection one look at your beautiful face
And I’m more bedazzled than by any sapphires or rubies.
You are the most beautiful and happy dream
A reality that may be impossibly out of reach
But I want to sleep for eternity when it’s you I’m seeing.
You are the most powerful force I’ve ever known,
How you can hypnotise me whenever you speak,
I am completely under your spell anytime you phone.
You are my hopeless sanity seeing defeat,
And your sparkling laughter destroyed all resistance,
I am completely at your will whenever we meet.
You are more than anything in my life that one
That makes my life be a constant festival of emotion
Oh how life is black and white when you’ve gone.
You are the most amazing woman I’ve ever met,
My love you will always be the love of my life,
A blessing that as the years go by I will never forget.
I can still dream, even without hope,
I am still holding on, even without a rope,
I am still fighting, climbing an endless slope,
Not knowing how to stop, but also how to cope.
I can still wish, even though the stars say otherwise,
I am still here, even if you put me down to size,
I am still in love, even if my heart dies,
I can’t help it, I’m gone with one look into your eyes.
I can still scheme, even if I overthink every variable,
I can still fight, even if the pain is unbearable,
I can still try, even if I must prepare to do
Every little thing that I can to let you know I’ll be there for you.
You can turn my rain into sun
And turn my sun into rain
Make me happier than I’ve ever been
Or cause me the worse pain
You can make unable to get up
Leave me lying on the floor
Or make me fly higher than ever
Spread my wings and soar
You are my rollercoaster
You can make me rise and fall
You can make or break my day
With just one phone call
You can make my heart go up and down
That way you are my stairs
You have my heart in your hand
So please handle it with care
I feel sorry for anyone
Too scared to give in to their feelings
I wouldn’t sacrifice the joy or pain
I never want to stop dreaming
I would never live in a comfort zone
For how can one live life void of emotion
When such a state is barely living
I love being trapped in hopeless devotion